EP 115 | OUR MOST IMPORTANT WORK IS NOW

Now is not the time to panic…

I’m going to cut to the chase because actually WHAT THE FUCK?

On one hand, I am astounded. Baffled. My mouth is hanging open at America like ARE YOU SERIOUS WITH THIS INSANITY?

I don’t understand how we became so lost from our own empathetic humanity.

On the other hand. Not surprised. At all. As I watched the election results roll in with a fury and certainty that felt a hell of a lot like 2016, I thought, “Of course it’s like this. It has to be. We can only truly transform through death.”

Then, the fear took hold. What a terrifying time to be alive.

 

First, I dove into the news sites and social media and doom scrolled myself into a catatonic state of terror and numbness. I felt enraged on behalf of life itself. Tears came and went. The sledgehammer of reality kept pounding at me until I stopped resisting and fighting. I felt myself being sucked under the tide of despair. The only thing to do was let it take me. I hid under a blanket and sat in the dark watching Outlander and eating snacks about it.

Nothing helped. I felt worse. I felt locked inside myself, watching old coping mechanisms try to manage and divert the feelings. I wanted to escape. I could not escape. Running away and being in denial is no longer part of my toolkit.

I have healed so much that it’s literally impossible to check out now.

I sat in the dark and watched the sunset. I saw how in that moment the Universe was teaching me. Offering me a new path.

I sludged myself into my office and led my call with my ​Nesties​ and we moved through it together. It was heavy and joyful and true and planted hope in my heart. I am so grateful for the medicine of community and integration.

We are stronger together than any election outcome. We are family. We are connected to Spirit. We are healing. We are creating wholeness and rewriting our realities.

The thing the news makes you forget is that you are not fragile. You are not a victim of the system. You have the agency to choose how you respond to what is happening in the world. You decide what narrative is true. You get to choose if all is lost.

All is not lost. We have a drum and a fire and a voice and each other.

WE ARE THE MEDICINE AND WE ARE AWAKE AND ALIVE.

So please, take a moment to fall apart. Scream. Cry. Rage against the dying of the light. Do whatever you need to do to process and move the feelings that are inside you. Take care.

Because it is going to take more than a change of officials to stop the expansion of consciousness and love. And that means you need to be awake, aware, well resourced, energized, and whole so you can hold the vibration of love in your heart. So you can be the medicine in the world. So you can share your gifts and heal your heart and mend your relationships and protect the right to remember.

This is not about politics. I am not here to tell you that one side is good and one side is bad. The left and right wing belong to the same bird. I am here to encourage you to call your energy back home. To remind you that you are not too soft and tender for these times. You are here now to rise up and be the change.

The time to stop looking outside to institutions and celebrities and candidates and gurus to save us is here with a vengeance.

Why are we in this perilous time in the human experience? Because we have forgotten who we are. Our data has become corrupted, and we are the ones corrupting it. We’ve forgotten all the way. We have lost connection to Source. We are in a spiritual emergency and everything depends on each of us coming back home and remembering.

We have the amazing opportunity to do tremendous healing and evolution right now. It is encoded in our DNA. We have the power and audacity to take a stand within ourselves. To refuse to lower our frequency into the hopeless abyss of apathy and despondency.

The thing is, it really can’t be any other way. Humans historically have to travel to the brink of the most imbalanced, violent experience to mutate and change. Regimes don’t gently fade away with softness. The empire dies and crumbles thrashing in puddles of blood.

There is only one way through this. We must find our way back to Spirit. To reconnect with the most simple and beautiful teacher, our Mother Earth. To know in our bones that there is something much greater at work here. Some higher power that is seeking to work through generations of suffering in exactly this way, in exactly this time. There is a benevolent force at moving through all this that is far beyond our own understanding. That force is called Love. The sweet mystery of life itself.

We need these harsh conditions. Earth has a fever. She is sweating and delirious and so are we. The feeding frenzy of hate and vitriol is a symptom covering up deep wounds. The grief of a thousand lifetimes. The open, festering wound of our forgetting.

We are in need of a full systemic detox. We have a pox on our household and we are about to find out what the death rattle sounds like.

It is time to surrender and face our shadows. Our racism. Our sexism. Our homophobia. Our violence. Our bigotry. Our ugly, power hungry systems of institutional slavery, repression, and greed. Our murderous, extractionist, violent, embarrassing ignorance. Our shame and ugly secrets. It’s all coming to the surface like a puss-filled boil. Like a flesh eating bacteria that is showing us our own bones while we live. There is nowhere to hide.

We have to look it all right in the eyes and say NO. Not today, Satan. This is a reckoning. Let the fever bring us what we need to sweat out our ignorance and surrender. So we can heal and live in a different way on this planet.

Do we join the army of the revolution where we fight to be right? Where we hope the system holds on a little longer so we don’t have to deal with it? Where we don’t think about the seven generations who are here, and the seven generations to come? What will be left for them if we don’t heal now? For us?

We have to decide not to meet hate with hate.

Instead of going to war, we walk in peace.

We can choose to open and let these wounds breathe. We can unshame our own darkness. We can find mercy and compassion in our hearts. Treat ourselves and our sins and our humanness with the gentleness of a mother tending to her newborn who is very, very sick.

Can we stand in the face of everything we hate about ourselves and others and be soft? Can we admit our own complicit participation in creating this? Can we forgive ourselves? Can we forgive and love the ones we disagree with? Can we trust ourselves and our communities, and bring our attention back to what’s here in front of us? Can we stand to turn inward? Because that’s where the answers are. Not on the news. Not on social media. Not anywhere outside of yourself. The government was never going to save you.

You are going to save yourself. We are going to save each other.

In this week’s episode I’m offering a practical guide to resourcing yourself fully, calling your energy back to you, and inviting you to reorient yourself inward so that you can be the fully embodied force of nature you came here to be. There is nothing more important than doing your own healing work so you can live in embodied power. Use the plants. Learn from them. Stay in ceremony. Pray. Sing. Make love. Celebrate. Rejoice in your aliveness.

Do not give up. I love you. Let’s fucking go.

Sinclair